Blood In My Sight

[doubled_speed]

WHO: Tommy & Kyle
WHERE:
WHAT: Tommy needs to calm down
WHEN: 6/26, After yelling at Billy and threatening Riley
WARNINGS: CW: discussions of torture and experimentation on children

This was too much. His anger was still roaring, his blood pounding in his ears, his thoughts running too fast for even him to catch up to. And Tommy just had to do what he could to calm down. He'd tried his island and stopped that when he's knocked into a tree with too much force. It fell over and he knew he was going to bruise badly from it. Then dove into the water to cool off.

Even that wasn't enough so he did the next best thing he could. He took off to find the only person he could talk to right now.

Which was showing up at Kyle's room at the hotel. Doesn't even bother to knock, or even open the door. Just vibes through.

"Kyle," he called, shocked by how raw his voice was from his distress.

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[kyley_b]

"Yes. I'm afraid it is. We do it to each other all the time."

Kyle shakes his head. "You did NOT get what you deserved. At all. They were using you because they saw you as less-than, and that's not true. You didn't deserve that any more than POWs deserve to be tortured and humiliated, or immigrants detained in horrible conditions, or black people used as medical experiments without their knowledge or consent. People are shitty, and its not the victims' fault."

[doubled_speed]

It is. But Tommy hates it a lot. A hell of a lot.

"Stop being smart. IT's fucking hot," Tommy grumbles. "Next thing you know you'll be bossing me around and correcting my spelling."

[kyley_b]

Kyle snickers. "I dunno about bossing you around."

[doubled_speed]

"Ah, that'd be hot," Tommy answered, chuckling as he lets a hand settle on Kyle's hip. But the jokes don't actually get his hand exploring. He's too upset over all of this right now.

"Oh well."

[kyley_b]

"Like you wouldn't sass back. Which is also pretty hot."

He kisses Tommy softly. "We'll look out for your brother. Promise."

[doubled_speed]

Damn, they're just idiots enjoying the idiot things about each other.

"He doesn't want me looking out for him. How do you protect an idiot that won't let you do it?
"

[kyley_b]

"Sneakily. And by maybe being honest with him." Another kiss.

[doubled_speed]

Okay, no, shut up.

"I'm honest as fuck."

[kyley_b]

"We just established he doesn't know the extent of what happened to you."

[doubled_speed]

Yes, that's a thing.

"Honesty and privacy aren't contradictory man."

[kyley_b]

Kyle sighs. "You don't have to tell him. I'm just saying he'd be more likely to understand your concern and listen to you if you did."

[doubled_speed]

Was it really like that, though? Tommy didn't know. And he definitely didn't know how to bring it up. So maybe for now he can ignore the perfectly good advice.

"This is Billy. He does what he wants."

[kyley_b]

Kyle rolls his eyes a little. "Oh wow, so you're BOTH like that, huh?"

[doubled_speed]

Wait, what? Tommy gives Kyle the dirtiest look for that.

"Excuse you, I'm very much agreeable and I listen to people."

[kyley_b]

Kyle lifts both of his eyebrows and smirks.

[doubled_speed]

"Shut the fuck up," Tommy insisted, his voice soft. "I hate that I'm terrible at this, so let's pretend i'm not."

[kyley_b]

Kyle shakes his head and kisses him again.

[doubled_speed]

A kiss is good. Enough to let him close his eyes and try and let the stress pass.

It's the best he can give himself at the moment.

[kyley_b]

Kyle just cuddles him, sometimes absently stroking Tommy's hair. There are times when it's best not to say a thing, and although he hates it it's a lesson he has learned.

[doubled_speed]

A lesson learned, yes, and one benefiting Tommy. He curled closer and tried not to let the sting of tears push at his eyes.

"Kyle, what if he hates me?"

[kyley_b]

"He can't." Stated as fact.

"He might be really upset, but he won't hate you. If he was so upset he needed time to process? You'd give him some space, and focus on your own feelings a bit, I guess."

[doubled_speed]

It wasn't that he'd willingly given space. It had just, you know, happened.

"I think fi I went home and he was there he'd just send me away."

[kyley_b]

"I really don't. But IF he did, it doesn't mean he hates you. It means he needs time. Same as you might."

[doubled_speed]

Time. Tommy always had way too much time.

"I tend over things sooner than most. Time is... it's relative to what we experience. I experience more of it I guess."

No, that was a lie. he'd hurt anyway, be upset anyway, be angry anyway. He carried it longer because he had so much time to stew before people could even begin to react.

[kyley_b]

"Well. You move faster than the rest of us slowpokes, so that makes sense." He runs his hands up to Tommy's shoulders and squeezes gently.

"You'd just have to be patient, dude."