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Tommy Shepard ([personal profile] doubled_speed) wrote in [community profile] revivalproject2024-09-28 11:58 am

This Is How We Get Along

WHO: Tommy Shepherd, Tony Stark, Billy Hargrove
WHERE: Tony's Workshop, Tommy's Room in Avengers HQ
WHAT: Trying to figure out a gift; emotional vulnerability
WHEN: Late September, Early October
WARNINGS: To Be Added in the Billy Hargrove Thread

I. What Do You Get For A Surfer Dude? | Closed to Tony
The thing about Tommy was that he was kind of shit about asking for help when he needed it for himself. Things that would benefit him, or make his life better, or help him deal with his shit. It wasn't something he did. Which always made him showing up to ask for it harder.

So yeah, his showing up (after a good bit of searching) at Tony's workshop door, knocking lightly as he did so, was odd. Him looking nervous was probably less so. He was, after all, trying to heal what he thought was some damage between them due to his own actions. But this wasn't about any of that. This was about asking for help. And fuck if he wasn't shit at that.

II. The Terror of Being Known | Closed to Billy Hargrove
Between them they have so many places to withdraw to. The shack on the beach, the apartment above the diner, the rooms taken up by Billy for his winter in the Civics Center. And here. The place Billy is getting to see for the first time while he comes help Tommy make the place more homey.

A room in the established Avengers HQ. A place shared with Steve Rogers and Janet Van Dyne and probably others. A place that was more plain than the efforts he had taken with the diner's space. Which was supposed to change today. That was absolutely the plan.

A plan that was being foiled by the frustrated noise as Tommy tried, once again, to get a table to sit level. He'd been trying to shim this thing for ten minutes now. Ten minutes for someone like Billy. A lot more than that for Tommy. It was a frustration so deep that he finally did something stupid. He kicked a leg of it in frustration. And with speed. Too much speed. The metal leg bent from the force, dumping the table and the box of tools and decorations that had been sitting on it to the floor.

Which in turn only amped Tommy's bad mood up further, leaving him fuming in particular down at a small, potted plant that clearly had a damaged pot now. Something that was going to take repotting.

"Fucking hell."
playingtough: (Staring ∂ Shock)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-08 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
He's waiting for the speedster to be taken aback by the word. to turn and leave like he had last time - so long ago on the beach. It had been the last time Billy had ever called Tommy that word. It takes long enough for the blond to get his voice back that his boyfriend can keep speaking, which is all... true, but Billy knows better.

"You don't! You don't have to be perfect all the time because you're not! No one is, and no one here is gonna villainize you for it and if they do, they can answer to me. If I'm not gonna villainize your brother for the shit he did to me, I'm sure no one's gonna do it to you for the painting!"

He realizes he's holding too tightly. If this had happened during a storm, no doubt he would've broken Tommy's arms with his grip. Slowly he loosens that grip and moves his hands up to his partner's face. Breath in. Breath out. When he speaks, he's trying to keep from yelling. "Look at me, Shepherd. Look at me. You're allowed to be imperfect sometimes, okay? And look, you hurt the table. Not someone else, you didn't take it out on me or anyone else in this building. Just a table."
playingtough: (Stare Down ∂ Not Buying it)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-09 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't," he says, biting only a little. Blue eyes search green. "But you didn't ruin things. Ruin means you can't fucking fix them anymore. Frank and Mary ruin things. Neil ruins things. Tommy Shepherd doesn't. He fixes things, makes them better than what they were before."

He thought of himself with that. How Tommy had a hand in helping Billy become better, along with everyone else he encountered. "You do things like that pottery shit you told me about once. Gold in the cracks. You don't ruin shit, Shepherd."
playingtough: (Staring ∂ Shock)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-09 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Stubborn. Is this what it was like for others talking to him when he was angry? Maybe he and Tommy really were two sides of the same coin. "I don't know, I wasn't there, Tommy," with more of that bite in his tone. Don't rise to meet Tommy's, don't do that. Might make it worse again.

"You do fix things. Don't try to sell me that shit." His grip has tightened again, so Billy loosens it. "Tommy. What's actually wrong? There's something and it's not just the table or painting, is it?" Could Billy help fix this for Tommy? Or at least get him to listen to the reasoning he was trying to provide? Maybe he just needed to let Tommy ride out this anger, but Billy wouldn't be able to stay if he did that.
playingtough: (Staring ∂ Shock)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-09 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)
The moment Tommy backs up, Billy follows with his hand going to his partner's forearm to grab. Maybe too hard at first, but then he softens the grip.

"Don't," Billy whispers as he watches Tommy with his blue eyes seemingly blazing. The speedster slips through his loosened grip and he starts pacing and the Californian lets him. "Don't pull away from me, babe. I just want to help." He wants to help make this better, even if he doesn't know how.
playingtough: (shade ∂ glasses)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-09 11:05 pm (UTC)(link)
What? What the hell was Tommy even talking about? Boots thump the floor as he crosses over to his boyfriend, grabbing him again by the arm. This time holds him to keep him from slipping away. "Don't you dare tell me what I'm going to do. If I was going to get bored, I would've done so by now and been gone."

Billy swallows hard. "You listen to me right now. I'm not people, Tommy Shepherd. I'm Billy fucking Hargrove who has a speedster for a boyfriend who isn't fucking annoying to me. You want annoying? Go talk to Munson during his board game shit. I'm not bored of you, and I'm not tired. I want to help you fix this because I don't like seeing you hurt like this. If I didn't, I would've already left."
playingtough: (Watching ∂ Attentive)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-09 11:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh those are definitely tears. It hurts, even if he didn't cause them. Tommy's brain did. The grip he has on that arm is used to pull them together, with the grip dropping so he can put his arms around the guy instead. "Shut up. I'm not planning on leaving any time soon. I don't know what I do that others do, but I think this has just garnered you more boyfriend sleepovers."
playingtough: (Watching ∂ Hard)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-09 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"Not me," comes the pushback. He holds Tommy as tight as he dares, not wanting him to think it'd be easy to get away. "Your parents are pieces of shit. They're right there with Neil. You be the bodyguard for Billy Kaplan, I'll be the bodyguard for you."

Billy pulls back enough to look at Tommy. "Look at me, Tommy." Reaches up to rub his thumb against that cheek. "I told you, awhile back that Temba was supposed to be my miracle. It isn't. You are, okay? And if you think I'm leaving my miracle behind, you're crazy enough to give Harrington a run for his money."

He thinks for a moment. "Also, maybe the one parent of yours that wasn't shit is... what his name? Vizh?"
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[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-09 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
"And? Who cares if he was really a parent? You see him as one, that's all that matters. A parent should be someone that raises you and you look up to them because they're good." That thumb starts up a rhythm of gently rubbing back and forth. He's your parent, I'm your boyfriend, and you're mine. This is one of those bad brain things, right? Keeps telling you lies even though I'm telling you the truth?"

Billy doesn't get it but he does a little bit. Whatever, he's trying. Mental health isn't a thing yet in his era.
playingtough: (Staring ∂ Shock)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-10 12:08 am (UTC)(link)
There he is. Billy doesn't let up the touch, keeping his boyfriend in his arms. "Baby, this is your first experience with me. Do you think I'm lying when I say I'm not going to leave you? The night you had to leave because you were afraid of your powers coming back to hurt me, I hated it. I didn't want you to leave even if it was to protect me. I wanted you right back in bed even though I was asleep when you left."
playingtough: (Staring ∂ Shock)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-10 12:27 am (UTC)(link)
"You don't get to tell me what or who I will or won't want, babe. We decided we were gonna date, so you're stuck with me now. Call it the consequences of actions or something. You are... man, you are really stuck in this, aren't you?"
playingtough: (Worried ∂ Oops)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-10 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
"C'mere." It's not a suggestion, because Billy's already leading them back over to the bed. Gently moving the bundle he originally brought, off to the side, he sits down and pulls Tommy down to sit next to him. "You are a mess. A hot mess, and my hot mess. I'll spend the night more to keep you still. I can't fix it, but I can make sure you're not alone."
playingtough: (down ∂ humbled)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-10 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
Oh. This sort of sounds like the same stuff Tommy had been scared of during the storms. "Then you hurt me and I know it's an accident. You think I wouldn't know the difference between accidental and intentional? You've seen the way my head looks for yourself, neither of us come from great backgrounds. Screaming means a nightmare. Would you help me through mine? Because you have. Which means I'd help you through yours. We're boyfriends, Tommy. Partners. I'm not gonna be like my dad, I'm gonna try to help you."

Stubborn little shit.
playingtough: (Baby Blues ∂ Soft)

[personal profile] playingtough 2024-10-10 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
"It’s the same thing with me. You know if I hurt you, it’s an accident. You’re smart enough to know when I mean it and when I don’t." He loops an arm around one shoulder, and then rummages in his bundle with the other.

"Don’t be fucking sorry. You’re allowed to be upset. Here," and he pushes one of the shells he brought with him to Tommy’s hand. "Tell me about this."

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Yeah, sounds good to me <3

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