(Network) awake from blood-thick dreams

[hooliganstatus]

I'm seeing a lot of people apologizing for what they did while we were in the city.

What if what you suddenly feel guilty about is older than that? If no one is here to apologize to?

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[hooliganstatus]

But you learned, or you wouldn't be advising me on it, am I right? Maybe we can both figure it out together.

[noch]

I am... trying, yes.

[ She's quiet for a moment, her eyebrows knit as she figures out how to put this into words. ]

Before, I thought only about my own ends, and I did not care what it would do to others. Now I care.

[hooliganstatus]

That does sound familiar. If anyone else gives me any good advice, I'll be sure to pass it on.

... What made you care? I'll share mine.

[noch]

[ Hearing that Aeon will pass along any advice gets a brief, wan smile of out her. As for what made her care... ]

After my sisters were killed, I wanted only revenge. It... consumed me, made me blind. But then someone came to Dathomir, my planet, and he helped to free me from that lie. He showed me a new path.

[ Spoilers: it's Cal. ]

[hooliganstatus]

Lucky for both of you. [she means it, too - there's none of the usual flippant spark in her eye, no sass in her tone. this is a serious moment, and she handles it with the necessary care]

I was ... it was in the city, a few days after you and I parted ways. Did you happen to see the strange fog?

[noch]

Yes, I was very lucky.

[ There's a sort of subdued finality in her tone. She can acknowledge that much, and easily too. ]

I remember. Did something happen?

[hooliganstatus]

Yes. I was caught in it, and started to see people. Faces I knew from that life, but mostly ones I didn't recognize. They all started accusing me of things I'd done ... and surrounding me, coming after me. I didn't remember any of it then, but ... now, being back here, with my mind back to what it was ... it was all true. I've done a lot more damage than I realized.