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June-July and Calibrations

WHO: Reeve Tuesti, OTA
WHERE: Arriving In Tunnel, Calibrations Waiting Room, Reeve’s Calibration Room
WHAT: The lead up to and time around Calibrations
WHEN: June 2nd to July 10th
WARNINGS: CW: Reeve’s Calibration room may contain references to kidnapping and confinement, including of children

Man and Cat OTA
When they arrive it’s near the end of the thirty-six hour period. There had been much to do for preparation, things to pack, and honestly, he wanted to see the storm as it brewed up. It wasn’t like he’d seen it the first time, having arrived just days after the last blew itself away. But that means the man arrives with quite a bundle in his arms. Packs and papers and the few kits and tools he’s gotten himself from the replicator.

And at his side, a foot and a half tall stuffed animal of a black and white, tuxedo-cat, its own arms wrapped around coiled up papers. Was it possible for a stuffed animal to look proud of itself? Perhaps it should, because it’s got a very smart looking, dark green cape tied around its neck and a whole load of responsibility, so why wouldn’t it be happy?

“Does anyone know how long these storms typically last?” Reeve asks of anyone who comes near. And Mini stops every few steps to readjust the papers. It’s a lot harder to carry things when you don’t have fingers.

Calibrations Waiting Room

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Calibrations [CW: Referenced (nothing explicitly depicted) kidnapping and confinement, including of children]

It’s not a bedroom, it’s an office. A rather dark one at that, most of the light coming either from the scattering of monitors, some recessed lighting high above, or two lights pointed at the rather oversized Shinra corporate logo behind the desk. The desk itself is cluttered, covered with files and papers and reports. This is clearly the desk of someone far too busy with their life. Someone who isn’t fully organized.

On it there are a few things of notable interest, like architectural reports and diagrams, a few reports on small hinges with one bearing a sticky note of ‘but why would you want them’, and there’s even a box filled with several glowing green and blue orbs. Materia. Further along, in a corner, is a framed picture of a couple that look vaguely like Reeve, his parents no doubt, and Reeve as a boy, all of them smiling in front of what looks like a farm house. The computer monitors scroll through a number of images of Midgar in various stages of being built.

Of course most of that only matters if you didn’t sit in the very comfortable office chair. Hope you like boring board meetings.

Reeve himself lounges on one of the couches in the room, looking tired. Very tired. Like he wishes he could just sleep in peace. But, if engaged, he will indeed talk.

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This was a much brighter room than the office had been, but much like the office he didn't need Reeve to tell him where they were; not that Tony would have easily associated a place like this with Reeve without the context, but he really wasn't lying about being raised on a farm. A very alien farm with giant chickens, did they have mini flocks of cows?, but it only took Tony a quick sweep to realize what had happened. He hesitated just long enough to squeeze Reeve around the elbow before he was on the prowl again, without the cold frown he had scanned the office with but a curious diagnostic as he bent over the young Reeve to scan his work at hand, then slid by the window with another baffled look out at the bird before leaning close to the woman, hands behind his back like that would make his calculating looming any more respectful.

"Does your world have chocobos?" Reeve asks, moving to the window to look out it toward his father. "The last place I was I met some people from a version of Earth. They said they had things called 'horses' instead. I've always wondered what it must be like, to have 'horses'. Would they have made life easier?"

Of course, Chocobos were very social with humans when they were domesticated, so he didn't much mind them.

"Mama!" the young Reeve at the end of the table called as he set aside his pencil. His voice was higher, sweeter, and there was no denying a vaguely scottish brogue to it. And he lifted the little straw figure up onto the table, dumping it there. "Look!"

The woman looked up from her work, eyes curiously turned to her son as he held up a hand, a single finger outstretched, and tapped the straw figure, even as he exhaled. There was a light that seemed to flow out with his breath, low and made more of mist than anything else. And the straw figure... rose. Pushed itself up on little wobbly arms and onto even more wobbly legs. The straw, though, couldn't support itself, so the figure immediately fell over, and the woman gasped in shock.

And there was a flicker of fear on her face. Not of her son, but for the boy.

"Oh Reeve," she said, her accent echoing his, not even bothering to dust the flour from her hands as she circled the table and came to kneel next to her son's chair as the straw figure struggled to get up again. "Reeve, sweetie, mama needs you to take it back."

"Take it back?" the boy asked, confused, tilting his head and scrunching his brow in a way that clearly implied Reeve's faint signs of wrinkling came from curiosity that started very early in life.

"Take it back," she repeated. "The magic you got. That's how you did it, right?"

The child considered for a long moment, his eyes flicking over to a glowing green orb near the kitchen sink, before he nodded. "I guess. It just... happened. Isn't it grand?"

The woman still looked concerned.

"Yes it is, baby. But you gotta look at it. The poor thing isn't strong enough. That ain't nice, leaving it like that. Best take your magic back."

"But... how?"

His mother didn't seem to know how to respond to that. At last she reached out with a hand and scooped up the little figure, which was still trying to rise.

"Remember your sweater? How you pulled at a thread and pulled and pulled?"

"You told me not ta," Reeve agreed. "It got all unraveled."

"Well some magic is like that. So reach for that feeling you had when you made it, and then find the loose string and pull. Okay?"

The boy looked like he wasn't certain, but he nodded. Intent to please was definitely something the child had going for him. So he reached out for the figure in his mother's hand and touched it. The boy closed his eyes and the kitchen was very silent for the moment, even the straw figure seeming to stay still, and as the boy inhaled the light and mist was back, pulled back into him and the light defused under his skin. Reeve's mother set the figure aside and pulled her son into her arms, hugging him tightly.

"I'm very proud of you, baby. But you must never show anyone that again."

The older Reeve in the room hadn't even bothered to turn away from the window. He just made a quiet huffing noise, like he was amused by the comment, even now.

"Is that what that is?" Tony asked, leaving the woman's elbow to join Reeve by the window, as baffled by the name as he was by the appearance of the giant bird, but whatever was translating Reeve's language for him wasn't offering a less ridiculous sounding alternative. Another small insight to where the melody of his speech came from, only to be scattered again a moment later as the pair in the room with them spoke in accents he hadn't heard from Reeve before, making Tony throw a questioning look his way. They would have to deal with horses later. Tony stood with his shoulder to Reeve and back to the window to watch, arms crossed, the magic of the boy's breath and the mother's concern. "How did you know you could do that?" he asked.

Listen, some accents don't get you far in light. Reeve chuckles at Tony's reaction to it, and yes, he supposes he'll have to give a demonstration of it later.

"I don't know," Reeve admits to Tony's question about the magic. "I just did. My magic is... it's part of me. Deep down in the core of my being."

"But why?" the boy asked in that way that all children seem to have, close to irritating because they don't understand the world.

"Because... because sometimes people don't understand the things that are different. They'll be jealous, baby. And what did we say about jealousy?"

The boy's face scrunches up again. Clearly there had been a lesson in the past about this.

"That it ain't right. Wanting what others got."

The woman nods along, and embraces her son tightly again before letting him go.

"Exactly. But not everyone is right. Sometimes people want things like that for themselves. So this is something you gotta keep for you, Reeve. You're a very special little boy. Just like your Grammie was. But what you got, you gotta keep for yourself sometimes, because no one is gonna understand."

"Like the King of Cats."

"Righto," she agrees before moving to the dough and going to work again. "He always knows what is what and what needed done. But he knew that ya can't do everything, and how it got him in trouble when he tried."

The boy nods, this clearly meaning something to him. "But mama, does that mean I can't do it no more?"

"No, baby. Just that you gotta keep it secret."

"As if I was ever good at listening to her like I should," older Reeve sighs as he turns to watch his mother finish kneading the dough. In his current age, he can see the tension in her shoulders, her fear, her concern. "Always a protective woman. But she knew best."

While he speaks the woman and child, and even the dough fade away, leaving Reeve alone in the rustic kitchen with Tony.

Tony kept watching where the woman had stood, licking his lips like he might be able to still taste the dough in the air with his own melancholy, leaning a fraction closer to Reeve with his head tipped his way but squeezing his arms tighter around his chest instead. "She seems wonderful," he muttered. Not anything like his own mom, not even like Mama Rhodes; maybe it was something about living on a farm that made these moms the way they were, because Tony found himself thinking about the brief glimpse of Poe's instead. With a sniff and a shrug as thought he wasn't nearly as engaged with any of this as he had obviously made it seem, Tony asked, "Who were you jealous of?"

"She was one of the most wonderful people I ever knew," Reeve agrees. Was. His loss, though, was far more recent.

But leave it to Tony to ask. And Reeve just smiles.

"I've always had problems with jealousy and wanting what wasn't mine. That was why work was so good for me when I was older. A distraction."

He turns to consider Tony and shrugs.

"The next farm over. They bought one of those new Shinra Inc Trucks. My family only had a chocobo. Which was silly to be jealous over. Betsy was so good at me growing up."

She had been the sweetest bird.

With a glance back through the window as though he could see the chocobo again, Tony grinned and repeated, "Betsy," not quite making it to teasing with the fond tilt of his head. It was no wonder Reeve turned out so calmly sure of himself, he had Betsy and his supportive mom. Much less dangerous territory, despite how much Tony still wanted to ask, than Reeve's jealous streak, but it was clear in Reeve's language that his mom was gone, and Tony wondering what happened to her wasn't going to help either of them. He didn't find talking about his parents' death particularly gratifying. So he was left with, "What did you need distracting from?", very carefully, because obviously he had worked beyond the necessity for distraction by the time he got to Temba.

Work was its own distraction.

"Many things. How poor my family was compared to others. How smart I was. The way I felt about people I knew could never return my affection. Many things. In the end, I left this place far younger than I should have, longing for more than my family could give me. Sometimes I wonder if it was foolish."

He moves to the chair the child himself had been sitting in and he looks to Tony.

"I suppose I still need those distractions now."

"It was," Tony provided helpfully with a wry smile, staying where he was by the window but easing his tight hug around himself like he might have followed, only to shift a hand over his heart. He opened his mouth again, tongue to his lip with a sharp inhale, only to grimace and click his teeth together before speaking; some distractions weren't welcome, look at this space he put between you. Instead, "From here, I know I would have given anything to be a kid some place like this, you know, mom 'n the bird, and..." he gestured vaguely, not sure how to better articulate the warmth built into this room. "I was out, first boarding school, when I was six, I was...distracting," he tried instead to give Reeve the context. "But I also know this place would have driven be crazy, I'd be climbing the walls as a kid. So, foolish, yeah, but unavoidable, probably. They must have understood."

The hand over the heart. A gesture Tony repeated time and time again as they interacted. But... only in the tense moments? Was Reeve remembering that right.

"My father as well. But this was me at six. I'm... sorry your family erroneously thought you distracting. Or distracting in a bad way."

They understood. That's what makes Reeve frown softly. His fingers caress the arm of his chair. There are marks carved and worn into it with excited children's hands. Oh well. But mostly he was sad. This place didn't even exist anymore.

"Is that something you had to deal with, growing up? Being unwanted?"

That certainly wasn't the way he would have phrased it, so Tony pursed his lips and waved the phrase away dismissively, of course not, nothing like that. "Who else was going to take over dad's company?" he proposed; of course he was wanted, he had an important job to do. "I was difficult," he corrected, turning that wave down his chest before replacing his hand there, "I mean, please. We've met. If I did something like that, and mom was there to tell me to knock it off, the waterworks would start, it would be a whole scene." He shook his head, giving a pout again, not sure what they were doing talking about that asshole when they were standing in Reeve's kitchen. "You were a smart kid, for six," he muttered to get them back on track, gesturing vaguely to the boy's work he'd had on the table. "Was that all her, too, or dad?"

"I don't know. Mother never thought she was much of anything," Reeve sighs, fingers coming up to toy with his hair. "I fear I might have been a disappointment. But hte first time she met Cait, saw how I could use my magic, her mother's magic, without giving it away... Well, I like to think she was proud."

But he seems sad to even talk about her. So instead he looks at Tony.

"Come now, can't you sit with me?"

Watching that scene, it was hard to imagine how Reeve could have left this house feeling like a disappointment, but Tony knew it was only one of a million memories he must have had at this table and he frowned sympathetically when Reeve couldn't even say he'd heard she was proud in her own words. He took a breath at the invitation, glancing around like he could find any other excuse to keep his distance like this was a test before dropping his arms deliberately to cross to the table and pull a chair to face Reeve. As he draped himself into it, knees crossed primly, he propped his elbow on the table and offered an open palm. He didn't have to talk about her if he didn't want to.

"Your friends magic, too?" he suggested, not exactly needing a clear answer on that one; big cape guy had to be magic to justify looking like that. He was more curious how their extravagance fit into this world where Reeve had to hide that about himself, and turned out looking so...straight-laced.

Well, here was a question he could take, even if it wasn’t the conversation he wanted to be having.

“I possess a natural magic that leaves me, in a very fleeting way, attuned to the Lifestream of my world. Vincent and Cloud are different. Shinra did many terrible things, what Cloud can do is a result of it. There was a program, they called is the Soldier Project. They infused teenaged boys with mako, among other treatments. It enhanced strength, speed, senses, made materia easier for them to use. But... in those that it goes wrong for, it can turn them into monsters. Literal monsters. Cloud, it is important to note, is NOT a monster. But his mako levels are high, and at this point, I’d say that he’s the strongest man alive on my world, the greatest swordsman, and the single most dangerous individual...”

And that is when Reeve meets Tony’s eyes.

“Except for Vincent. If Cloud chose to come at someone, it’s with a sword that is five feet long, a foot and a half wide, and he lifts it like it’s light as a feather. Vincent? He’s magic in a whole other way. But their stories aren’t mine to tell. That said, Vincent is by far the more dramatic of the two. He’s a friend and I would be surprised if, in the time he’s been here, he’s said more than a hundred words to me. Whereas I, when he arrived in this mind-room, spent most of the time catching him up on the next few weeks of his life back home wherein he literally saved the planet from self-destructing. And yes, before you ask, our world really is that dramatic. But in its defense, it only does so once a year for the last... three years.”

Reeve looks tired at that admission.

“Is it so wrong for me to just want the world to stay saved for a bit?”

With his hand ignored, Tony had to slowly curl it back to tuck apologetically against his mouth, trying to look like he meant to do that the whole time as he watched Reeve very attentively over it. That was a lot of information for him to be spilling, leaving Tony wondering about super soldiers, what exactly Shinra actually was, if Reeve deliberately meant to be threatening him or it just sounded that way, and what other, terrible surprises magic had in store for him with Vincent, all before Tony was raising his eyebrows in surprise that Reeve apparently just told the guy what his future was. Billy and Tommy had been so cagey about Tony's, and Tony didn't even think they were from the same dimension to be worrying about...whatever it was they thought they were worried about. Apparently nothing, if other people were getting their futures dictated.

"Annually's not bad," he muttered as he spread his hand away from his mouth to prop under his chin instead. "My planet doesn't self-destruct that much, that's kind of a personal problem, but I'd wager there's someone else out there on yours filling in for your little crew for the rest of the year when shit goes down. Once a month I'm tracking the big, boy, we're all going to die unless someone gets a really good punch in, sort of threat." He tried to offer a supportive smile, not feeling confident after the hand, and let it fade quickly. "Do you really not think we could be from the same planet? I know it's not the same dimension, but-- a medical experiment to make the greatest soldier on Earth that turns everybody else into a horrorshow, a big magic cape guy who doesn't talk much and just secretly saved the planet from the moon crashing into it last night, I've got those friends, too."

The hand being pulled away makes Reeve realize what he's missed and a look of annoyance flickered over his face. Dammit, why was he always messing this up so badly?

"Uh... I don't think Vincent has ever saved us from our moon. But yes, I'm certain. I've seen maps of Earth from Cayde's mind. I've heard stories of it from the other place I was in. Gaia and Earth are not the same place. You don't even have chocobos. With enough discussion, I could explain how I'm certain of the differences, draw you a map even."

As he speaks the farm house around them starts to fade, replaced slowly but surely by darkening walls. The walls of his office. A set of windows was being changed into a bank of computer monitors. And the table, somewhat between them, was becoming the desk. Reeve sat in the main office chair now, and a non-rolling one would take form under Tony, holding him there.

"This... this isn't what I want to talk about. Not here and now. We've time in these caves. I can find you in the morning and spend a whole day telling you my history and that of my world. Of my work with Shinra and my travels with Avalanche. About Sephiroth and Hojo and Meteor and Holy. The WRO and Omega Weapon. Anything you want. But..."

Reeve hesitates and then lifts his eyes to meet Tony's full on. There's no flinching away.

"I think I have done something to offend you. To trod on your toes and leave us both confused and upset and aching. And I am afraid if I can't speak the truth to you in the openness and vulnerability of my own mind, I'm hardly worth a glance."

"I don't really know if my guy has, either, his name is Moon Knight, so I took a shot..." Tony was muttering as Reeve continued, only stopping with a chuckle as the phrase 'you don't even have chocobos' caught him off guard. He really wanted to hear what this language sounded like out loud; no wonder none of them found Tony very funny. The measured return of the office wound out any relief from that laugh, though, tightening Tony's anxiety again as he sat up straight, gaze darting once more for the next data point to acquire.

He wasn't looking around long, drawn back to Reeve as he made it sound like Tony could just be asking him about all kinds of things that Tony didn't have the faintest clue about, only to look skeptical that Reeve wanted to spend that kind of time with him, then frustrated. Which was it?

Even with that frustration furrowing his brow, Tony was still surprised and opening his mouth immediately to deny that he was offended. Again, not exactly how he would have put it, but that was a talent of Reeve's. "I didn't take the schematics back because you did something," he said, sure they had already covered this and come to their 'nothing happened' agreement. "I shouldn't have done it in the first place. That's all. I'm the only person on Earth that knows how to put one of those together, and that's by design, I--" Tony found himself clicking his jaw shut again, glancing around for his out before sighing and just abandoning the statement for Reeve to decide what crimes Tony had committed for his own noble ends. He was a quick guy.

Quick, but not omniscient. So he just looks at Tony, expecting him to finish. And when he doesn't, he gestures for the man to continue. That sort of gesture that all high power executives know how to give. The one done in the presence of a subordinate who almost says something that could either be brilliant or crippling for the company, and the subordinate is realizing that crippling part at the last second so they want to staple their mouths shut.

"But you did do it. You shared it with me, even though I would have been content with you seeing the device built and managed by you for Mini's sake. Why? Tony, in our line of work, designs are so precious. Why share something so important to you, so important to keep secret, with me?"

That gesture was enough to tip Tony's restless anxiety over into pushing up from the chair, too defensive in that position with Reeve seated more imperiously in his office chair, to lean against the desk instead with his nails digging into the underside where his fingers curled around the edge, and ankles crossed like the move could have been anything like casual. At least from this position he was still taller than Reeve when he couldn't quite lift his head, watching Reeve through his lashes through his questioning with his eyes slowly narrowing, brow furrowed and pleading for Reeve to find the answers in his own question instead of making Tony say it. Why would Tony want to give him something important and precious? Nothing happened.

"Because you're brilliant enough to use it," he offered, and tried to shrug like that was all and it was nothing, only he was biting his lip and dropping his gaze down his chest to continue. "And more kind, I think, than anyone I've ever..." he took a deep breath and gave a small shake of his head, because that wasn't quite right, he knew plenty of miraculously kind people, but that kindness was rarely directed at him, not in the way that it felt like Reeve saw through him and was still kind regardless. "And so sure of your self and-- so beautiful, but you know that," he tried to grin, still down at his shoes, only to worry his lip between his teeth again. That was why. Did it make either of them feel any better?

The change in position worries him for a second. Reeve’s own anxiety rarely manifested in quite that way, so interpretation was difficult. But still he watched. Watched and waited until Tony grew quiet again. It was amazing, he thought, just how expressive Tony was. Even Reeve had learned to restrain physical reactions to a degree. Not like Vincent or Cloud, but still better than Tony in some ways. Unless the reactions were instead distractions.

“I am nowhere near as brilliant as you, and I cannot say I would understand your technology. Which may be a better reason than any for me to not be able to access it. One need only understand a little to do a lot of damage. But...”

Oh boy. The rest was a sort of opening up he wasn’t always good with.

“I have feelings for you, Tony. Lust and affection and aspiration. And I find it difficult keeping it to a professional relationship when that is by no means all I desire of you. My entire pulling away has been based on the realization that you may be romantically entangled with enough. I... lose out in such measurements. Often. Always. So in that way I am by no means self-confident. More confident in my own failure, thus pushing things to lead to that same failure. So please do not ascribe confidence or the like to me.”

But he does smile up at Tony.

“I’lll take the kind and beautiful. The latter I hear especially rarely.”

There was no doubt in Tony's mind that Reeve would have understood it well enough to engineer and manage the RT himself if Tony had done the work and left it with Mini, like Reeve suggested. He had no reason not to, and he adored that creature-- he would have figured it out. This only made Tony narrow his eyes skeptically, though; it was Reeve's argument of his self-confidence that got Tony to move, shaking his head again and raising a hand to tap against his heart, not confidence, something else that let him just say what his feelings were a second ago, wasn't he listening? Instead of trying to impress any of that on him, frustrated enough that none of it was clear already in the ways Tony had been trying to say it-- he and Jon were really similar, weren't they? or Tony wasn't nearly as transparent as he felt he was being, that wasn't anything new-- Tony rolled his eyes and demanded, "Do you really want to argue with me right now?" Tony gave his reasons, and Reeve had no business denying any of them, just like he had no business deciding for Tony what his romantic entanglements were. Reeve's kindness really didn't extend to how Tony was feeling, making him scrub an irritated knuckle over his brow.

Does he? No. The smile fades away and Reeve sighs, fingers carding through his hair. This was not easy. This was nearly... impossible.

"No, Tony. I really don't. Just want to be honest. I want to try and explain. Explain how I'm handling this awkwardly. Which clearly has not faded."

With a sigh he pushes to his feet, not actually happy with the office chair. He hates this office. Hates how awkward it is to be here.

Edited 2020-07-03 15:48 (UTC)

"I don't know how to fix this," Tony admitted, as long as they were being honest, dropping his hand to flick between them then spread over his heart like it could hold him back from Reeve as he stood too close. "You told me to stay away from you, and I'm a distraction, and you have a thing with Jon--I get it, I'm trying, but we're still having this conversation, and I feel like you don't really want to listen to me because I'm not saying what you want me to." He shrugged, mouth open, ready to say whatever it was that Reeve was looking for that had trapped them in this cycle. "I shouldn't have brought it up, I'm sorry. Is that it, have I not apologized yet? I'm sorry." Hopefully, Reeve understood what he was apologizing for, because Tony really didn't yet.

Yes, Tony is a distraction. But in some ways, that's a good thing. But mostly he's freezing as he looks at Tony because something he said was wrong.

"I don't have a thing with Jon. You have a thing with Jon. That's why I am trying to keep my distance. Because of you and him."

Was he... Wrong? Well, he doesn't know. Likely as not, he's just a horrible man who has been leading Tony on without meaning to.

Tony had taken Reeve's claim that he didn't want to argue at face value, but it was feeling like Reeve wanted him to know it was a lie now. He kept picking at what Tony was trying to say, like he was trying to goad him into that fight so he could have a proper excuse to get his distance from Tony now that he was saddled with the all too familiar regret of his moment of weakness. That was a bitter taste in Tony's mouth, making him lick his lips between his teeth and cast a glance across the room, hoping Reeve would take the hesitation to give Tony a different option, then pushed up out of his lean onto his feet with his hands up in surrender to this fight. "Is this a game you're playing with both of us, or is it just me that gets to enjoy it? Respect him more than you respect yourself, fine, that's your personal problem, but don't act like you're doing me some favour by putting me down there with you."

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