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Tony Stark ([personal profile] in_extremis) wrote in [community profile] revivalproject2023-11-03 08:07 pm

Transference

WHO: Tony, Wesker?, OTA
WHERE: Around Temba, and the hospital
WHAT: Tony's doing his silly little task
WHEN: The week after this
WARNINGS: Tony continues to be miserable.


a. days 1-6
The first problem with Wesker's request was convincing a whole bunch of different people to reliably carry around some new thing on the off chance that they were caught off guard, far from help or shelter. Including children. Most people didn't even have a jack in their car. Building this mechanism into something they already carried, like their communications devices, would have been the best case scenario. The second problem with Wesker's request was that all electronic systems, including the communication devices and the network itself, were not reliable in these disaster scenarios. So much for small and portable.

Tony was going to do neither of those things. What Tony was going to do, was try not to be seen trundling around the city, sometimes dragging his wheeled cart behind him full of broken consoles, glass and steel. He looked terrible. A longer day did not make a week long enough to solve this fundamentally social problem, but if he didn't sleep and kept a careful balance of coffee and red fruit juice, he could buy himself a few more hours. It didn't really take that long, in the grand scheme of things, to erect a radio tower, after all.

These started to appear in a slow circle around the perimeters of the city first, wherever Tony could get the highest, even if that meant doing his best Spider-man (Link?) impression and scaling a building with long metal beams strapped to his back. The one that was hardest to ignore crowned the Whale Comb Sent Her, unavoidably in the middle of the city, assembled on site and bolted to the roof and trying vainly to stretch as tall as the structures around it. Inside, among some debris from some necessary remodelling work, a line of tiny bells hung along the wall, each with quickly scrawled co-ordinates and distances under them, directly onto the plaster.

The most difficult part, really, was the materials. This wasn't new technology, a crystal radio was something the Greeks had, Tony was pretty sure. It was never going to be a strong signal, but he could make that work in his favour--the closer the transmitting tower, the more bells it could ring. While he was scavenging for enough beams to erect his towers, he could be looking for something that would satisfy Wesker's request more closely.

b. day 7
He had one day left when he startled awake, not realizing he had been asleep, jerking up quickly enough that his back protested with a sharp pain where it had been contorted over the workbench. A day was plenty of time, he thought, when he found he still had a mouthful left of coffee in a nearby mug. He didn't even get up out of the seat, just found his loupe among the tools and went back to work.

It was hours later that he started to tell himself that maybe he had been counting wrong, and when Wesker had said a week, he meant starting from the next day, not from when he made his request. That would have been the fair thing.

It was when it was hard to see through the pain in his head, and the red-stained bottle was empty, that Tony thought Wesker might have been right, and he had never done any of this altruistically, and if he really wanted people safe and not just relying on him for safety he could have figured that out any time in the last 30 years. Hell, he'd had a whole week to dedicate to one, little problem. He'd had a few more than that to figure out how to make one rocket stable enough to break the atmosphere. He didn't even need a rocket, he could do what he had always done best; make a gun. Nothing had really stopped him from making one of those before, except now he had the perfect opportunity to use that natural impulse to help people. All of that explosive inspiration suddenly failed him.

It was when all of his scattered eyes around the city alerted that the sun had set that he was left staring down at a frustratingly small scrap, and had to accept that it wasn't getting finished. He pushed away from the workbench finally, every joint creaking in protest, struggling to straighten his back and blink through the pain behind his eyes as he stumbled away to the sink. While he washed his face, D.A.T.A. helpfully rallied to pack his meagre offering into his waiting jacket pocket. The water didn't really improve his face. Despite the hour, he slipped on his sunglasses after carefully fixing his hair in their reflection, and accepted the silk jacket from the robot with a muttered, "Thanks." He could have given a half-way convincing press conference, if the lighting was forgiving. He really only had one person to convince as he made his way to the hospital.
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-12 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, I know," he says, when Tony trails off, though he assumes there was something to finish that thought that was left unsaid. He'd never gotten to tell his Tony that he felt that they were stronger together. He'd apologized, yes, but he'd told Tony to keep the Avengers, like he'd accepted their separation, like he'd thought the best thing to do was cede his resignation as Captain America.

"But does it have to be one or the other?" Tony's always finding new ways to fix a problem, and Steve's always bending the rules to get things to fit to his worldview, but somehow, when it comes to each other, they never consider a third choice.

He at least makes an attempt to lighten the mood, after he realizes how futile it is to ask either of them to unpack their relationship with their missing counterparts. "Is this 'cause I didn't know your birthday? I won't forget if you tell me." A beat. "If you remember it."
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-12 03:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's not what I meant and you know it," he returns, trying not to let his hackles raise because that's exactly what Tony wants. They're always looking for a fight with each other, always taking what the other says the wrong way.

And then, of course, Tony deflects with humor, and flirting, and Steve turns tail and walks off. It's just what they do.

So he takes a breath instead. "What'd he do?" he asks, instead. "Your Steve. What did he do?"
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-13 04:37 am (UTC)(link)
Things had been good for awhile, with Tony, with Steve. But even then, with the two of them getting along, they'd always sort of been somewhat at odds with each other, just two very strong personalities in a room. He respects Tony as he does any of the others, and he loves Tony as he does any of the others, and he supposes that maybe that's why it hurts so much to think that friendship might be lost, to see another Tony and think that, given their dynamic, maybe this sort of thing was inevitable.

Things were always just so dramatic between them, weren't they?

"I've never met your Steve," he says, easily, his hands reaching up to cup Tony's cheeks. Those weren't the words he would've thought Tony would say, especially not up close like this, not when the gesture seems so aggressive. He expected to be told to go away. To leave Tony alone. "But I do know he doesn't just give out platitudes. If he forgave you, then you deserved it. Or never did anything worth having to forgive in the first place."
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-14 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's not what - " he starts, frowning. "Is that why you think I'm here? To punish myself for something I did to a different you?" Because it's useless, he knows it. Whether this one offers him absolution or not for his crimes, it won't have any reflection on whether the other one does. "I apologized for something I did to you, not to him."

They're still so close together, it's a little bit awkward, but the physical awkwardness of it is just a manifestation of how strange it is for the two of them, to be talking to each other, each an imperfect mirror of the man they ought to be talking to, but can't.

He supposes this also reflects the first time he met Tony - Tony, who looked so much like Howard, who resented him, who wanted to be known to Steve by his own merits and completely disconnected from his father. And now, meeting Tony again, who's supposed to be nearly a complete stranger, there's still all this baggage.

Steve drops his hands to Tony's arms. "Can we start over?"
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-15 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
He always does this, and Steve always manages to get angry about it. At least back home, the other one was a little less forward. He's honestly thinking that this one just adds a flirtatious component for the specific purpose of making him feel uncomfortable.

He wonders if, perhaps, either this Tony is inherently less faithful than the one he knows, or if his Steve Rogers is just so exceedingly heterosexual that Tony thinks this tactic is going to work to piss him off when they're the emptiest words he could've pulled out. Well, aside from mentioning the alcoholism. Now that was actually something that could have possibly gotten Steve to stay angry.

With his touch shrugged off, Steve naturally moves his arms to cross over his chest. "I don't get stood up." A beat. "But fine. I get it. It's not gonna work. Why are you angry with me? Not with him."
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-15 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
Steve really fights not to roll his eyes at Tony. The flirting won't drive him away; he should know that by now. The more he tries to project it, the harder Steve's going to ignore him. Besides, he's caught Tony anyway, and as he tries to deny it, Steve cocks his head to the side as if to say he's not selling this very well.

"Right, that's why we're basically arguing over nothing," he says. "Why you get all up in my space just to push me away." Which is why he asked what the other Steve even did to him, to warrant this. Because yes, they're different people, all four of them, but they also all know each other well enough to get under each other's skin faster than pretty much anyone else. Zemo took years what Tony and Steve perfected in minutes.
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-15 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
"Tell me why you're angry at me so we can work through this," he says, arms crossed over his chest, leaning up against one of the work tables. How are they so dysfunctional? Steve feels like he's just talking to a feral cat sometimes, one who doesn't understand him and any of the words that come out of his mouth.

But he doesn't say that, because he doesn't think it'd really be any help. "Because the alternative is - the alternative is we just keep fighting. Or we walk away." He'd tried both of those once and somehow whatever call he made with Tony, it'd always been the wrong one.
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-15 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, Steve doesn't have any idea why they don't just communicate. He just stands there, listening to Tony, and maybe he doesn't complete any of his thoughts but he doesn't have to, because they don't have to start over that far back.

"I'm not your Steve," he reminds Tony, after a long pause, a very tense, long pause. But he comes forward anyway, trepidatiously, reaching out for him, gently at first as if touching a reflection in water and not wanting it to break. "But I know he wouldn't want you thinking the only good you do is on his account. Steve Rogers didn't help you become Iron Man," he says, even though he doesn't know if that was literally the case or not. But to clarify, he says: "You were a hero before the armor. And you're a hero without it."

He continues, and he comes closer still. "I want to talk to you. So does Jan. Hell, pretty sure Peter doesn't really care which universe you come from either. You guys have a Peter, right?" He shakes his head, because it doesn't matter, ultimately. "I can talk to Jon, if you want. I don't know the guy, but I think he's just trying to give you space."

And then, finally, he pulls Tony into a hug, enfolds him in strong arms, and though he may not be the same Steve Rogers, he might as well be when he's this close: he's the same kind of solid, the same kind of constricting. He even smells the same, despite the whole dystopian post-apocalypse thing. "Just because we don't have the same history doesn't mean I'm not the same Steve where it counts. There's just some things missing. Think of it like a hard reboot." No, that's not it. "New operating system. Work with me here, I don't know computers like you do, please tell me this analogy makes sense."
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-15 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
This hug is awkward. It is one of the most awkward hugs that Steve has ever had, because Tony's hand is still in the way and his beard is pressed up against Steve's neck and he's never actually had to deal with anybody's beard scratching up his neck before, so, there's that.

But he's trying, trying to find a common ground with Tony, trying to find all the parts where he fit and all the parts where he didn't exactly so he'd have to approximate or just start over fresh. Maybe Tony hadn't had Ultron and maybe they'd never fought over accords, or maybe there'd be villains and Avengers and countless others in their rosters and rogues gallery that they'll have to reintroduce.

And, yes, Steve is getting the distinct impression that Tony is disappointed he's waited for years and gotten a completely different Steve Rogers, one who knows him only so well, but he'll have to forgive Steve for the aliens' transgressions in having selected the wrong one. "Yeah, well, you're the genius, figure out an analogy that does make sense."

These kinds of conversations, oddly enough, remind him of the ones he had with Bucky, who wasn't the same Bucky anymore, but that hadn't ever mattered to Steve. The foundation was there, and yes, he had lots of things he had to work on separately; they both did. But as much as Bucky had kept thinking Steve was going to expect the same guy who used to take him out on double-dates and offered him a place to stay after his ma died to just show up out of nowhere and replace the Bucky that was in front of him, he'd been wrong about that. And whatever Tony thinks Steve expects of him, well, he's definitely wrong about it.

They might be here a long time. Steve isn't sure he's letting go until Tony relaxes.

"And - sure. But I don't like the thought of you being alone all the time," he says, mostly because Tony seems to have somehow thought that nobody wants to talk to him. "So I better see you topside or I'm coming back to your lab."
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-15 05:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Steve gently rubs Tony's back, the way his mother always did, when he'd be up all night with sickness. And he really, really has to fight from rolling his eyes. "Well, if he's good to you, then I'll like him. And if he's not, then I won't. Simple as that. If he thinks not talking to you is good for you, then I'm pretty sure I'm gonna have words with him about that." That, or Jon just hasn't seen Tony like this, on-edge, or the fact that Jon's ignoring him is just some sort of paranoid delusion his mind's made up to go with whatever this all is. It doesn't really matter to him that Jon has no idea who he is, or that none of them know.

He likes that better, actually. The anonymity. The respect isn't handed to him; he has to earn it the same way anyone else does. And he will, the same way anyone else does.

But, he's got another bone to pick with Tony about that: "Other people care about you," he says, as a fact. Like he's not doing any convincing or dragging people into coming to check in on Tony in his isolation. He's informing them because he knows that they'll want to get dragged along because they just want to see him, too. All the better they don't know Steve, then it won't be something Steve did or Steve caused.

He really has to wonder what he and Tony were like, on the other world, to make him this way.
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-15 07:19 pm (UTC)(link)
He raises an eyebrow because he hasn't explained to Tony the full situation - he'll have to, someday, just in case it happens to him because the whole problem was that he had kept secrets from Tony in the first place. That's why he's here, checking up, because he hadn't gotten to, in person, for years. But he won't defend himself on this part, he'll just say, "And that's how I know it's the wrong move," as he gently rests a hand on the back of Tony's head, to keep him there, assure him that there's a spot for him on Steve's shoulder.

Why Tony continues looking for something to argue about is beyond him. He'd rather they just work past this, that they recognize that they're going to be slightly different versions of the men they know, that they each come with similar problems but also very familiar ones as well, unfortunately. "How about sleep?" he asks. "Can't find anyone who's slept longer than me and isn't dead, and I can tell you that you need some."
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-15 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)
"The people are safe, for now. You've already spent years here, so what's eight hours to get some rest?" He asks, not even bothering to address the cheese comment. It was the closest he could get to a cheeseburger and he didn't do it to impress Tony, he did it to make sure he'd eat something.

But maybe this seems unfamiliar because Tony's out of the compound at home so much that Steve never gets to make him anything to eat, only ever bringing things to his fellow Avengers when they're around and he's near a kitchen. But as Tony's the only one to bug around here that Steve absolutely knows needs it, he's the target.

Tony really was impossible in every universe, wasn't he? "Besides, Tony, we're all trying. I don't even think we could get off this planet with the current state of the hangar. Even if we could figure out intergalactic travel." Yeah, and all the way back to talking shop. At least this part's easy, the part where they don't have to talk about feelings.
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[personal profile] pursuitofcappiness 2023-11-16 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
Steve looks at Tony like he's talking nonsense, and then reaches out to take his shoulder, again, not letting Tony shrug him off this time if that's what he's going to do. He has no idea what that was about.

"You're not on a clock. I have no idea why you think there's some sort of deadline for you to invent something. No, you've never built a spaceship before, as far as I know, so I don't know why anyone would expect you to have figured that out if you don't even have enough resources to build a suit."

He wonders if Tony has lost so much sleep that he's delusional, because he sure as hell isn't making a whole lot of sense. "Hey, how about this. You show me what you're working on, and get some sleep. And while you're doing that, I help you come up with a couple new ideas to try." How he can promise this when everything looks like actual gobbledygook to him on a normal day is beyond him. "How's that?"

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