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[The video started with a shot of the now open hangar roof in Temba, then turned around to face Keith, who looked rather confused and mildly concerned.]

Hey, uh... guys? Anyone get a notice that we might be leaving? I just checked the ships, and they're ready to fly... at least, the Bloodsport is. But, I didn't get a notice or anything that we were supposed to be going anywhere. Also, it looks like they're only able to take us over to that new place where the train goes. It's the only destination I can put in.

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[Keith gave a squeeze, inhaling a deep breath through his nose, and then nuzzling the side of Lance's face in return for a second.]

This is always worth interrupting something for.

[He stole a quick kiss.]

But, see? I'm not angry. I don't... [He shrugged a little, looking to one side and down.] ...wanna be that guy that gets angry all the time. I know I am, but... it's not something I'm proud of.

No, I'm sorry. It's on me. I've dated you for years and known you for even longer, but I keep putting my foot in my mouth and saying the wrong thing.

[The kiss is good, definitely, and he burrows his head in Keith's shoulder.]

I've always sucked at not doing that.

[Keith tilted his head to rest on Lance.]

Well, yeah... [Keith was just going to call it like it was.] But I also suck at not getting angry, so... you don't always have to take my temper so personally. Half the time, I don't know if I'm even really angry, or if it's something else.

I know. I know.

[He just holds him a bit tighter.]

I just...wish I could do better. I keep trying, but I feel like no matter what, I screw it all up in the end. I hate seeing you upset and knowing it's because of something I did or something I said.

[Keith frowned a little.]

And I hate the fact that I keep getting upset over stupid stuff.

I guess we're even.

Not the greatest of combos, huh? But... I'll learn to shut my mouth more if I'm not totally sure it won't backfire. Heck, everyone says I have a big mouth anyway.

[And though much lessened from his younger days, it's still true to an extent.]

They're not wrong... but it also means that you aren't afraid to speak your mind. That's not necessarily a bad thing, you know.

[Keith kind of admired Lance's ability to carry a conversation. He hated the fact that he couldn't always find words when he wanted them.]

But, it's okay. Look... we're both still working on things. You're not as goofy as you were when I first met you. And I know I'm trying not to be so quick to get angry at people. No one's perfect. But, as long as we're trying our best to be our best, then that's okay. Yeah?

It's a bad thing if I hurt you with my big mouth. I just...

[He's always been terribly insecure, his view of himself in the context of his and Keith's relationship very much part of it. Lance often feels that at any second, he could send it all tumbling down due to his own stupidity.]

I'll try to get better. I'll shut up more, and I'll be more careful about what I say. I won't tease you like I did...do? Still do, I guess, which is totally dumb of me.

Hey... teasing is what we do, okay? [He leaned back, forcing Lance to look at him by placing his hands on either side of his fiancé's face. He pressed his forehead against Lance's.] I don't mind teasing back and forth with you most of the time. Really. You don't have to completely stop. I don't want to be treated like I'm some snowflake or something.

[Yes... Keith had his issues and trigger points, but he really felt that was on him to deal with and figure out how to cope. He didn't want his problems to be someone else's problems.]

Just want you to be happy.

[He takes another deep breath as his gaze is forced up.]

I'd do anything for that. Like I said, I'll do my best for you. I'll figure it out better.

I know you would. [Keith gave Lance a small smile.] And I appreciate that.

But I don't want you to push things to the point of losing yourself just because you think it'll make me happy. I'm with you because you're you. That makes me happy. [Keith nuzzled Lance a bit.]

I want you to be happy, too. But I don't want you to be happy about all kinds of things, not only because I'm happy.

Okay. I... Okay.

[He has a point, of course. It's just difficult to get past his own securities, and a nagging voice that's always been there telling him that he's not good enough, that he needs to change himself.]

I love you.

I love you, too.

[He gave him a small kiss.]

The real you. You're a good person, Lance. And, yeah, you're a little doofy sometimes, [He smirked.] but that's part of what makes you who you are. And I love all of you. Okay?

[Now if Keith could only get something like that through his own head in regards to certain things he worried about in regards to himself...]

[As always, he can't resist returning that kiss.]

Thanks. Sometimes I just really need to hear that. And...you're just, amazing, y'know? I think I know most of you inside and out at this point, and I love every bit of you. My Keith.

[Keith managed a small smile at that.]

Your Keith... [Honestly, knowing that, even with his own issues controlling his temper and anxiety, Lance accepted all of that was a huge help. Way more important than Lance not teasing him.] I think I can live with that. But that means I can call you 'my Lance'.

I've been your Lance for a long, long time now. So please. Feel free to call me that. Feel more than free.

[He takes Keith's hand, pressing a little kiss to his palm.]

[Keith smiled softly, only pulling his hand free long enough to wrap his arms around Lance's shoulders and pull him in close. He pressed his face against his fiance's neck, closing his eyes and sighing deeply through his nose.]

I guess I have to now. [He hugged him tight, slipping a little kiss against the bare skin near Lance's ear.]

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that was an awkward typo... that 'don't' in the last sentence shouldn't be there... /sob/

It's okay! I got what you meant lol

Whew!

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