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Billy Kaplan ([personal profile] wearingthestars) wrote in [community profile] revivalproject2021-06-07 02:17 pm

I didn't mean for it to happen

WHO: Billy, Tommy, Bucky/The Soldier, OTA
WHERE: Temba, YA House
WHAT: The aftermath
WHEN: Early June
WARNINGS: TBD



The Return & What Follows (for Tommy)

Billy screamed, and the world dissolved. The Shadow had shielded him from the worst of it, assaulted by those memories in a non stop barrage for however long they were in there, but now he remembered it all. He dimly registered he was back in his calibration room, hoping he'd managed to release the others before he collapsed heavily onto the floor. He shouldn't have been able to perform that level of magic here. And whatever had allowed it abruptly cut it off with his return, utterly drained from the experience.

He was unconscious, in and out of nightmares for days before he finally jolted awake in a cold sweat, practically tumbling from the bed in his race to the bathroom to retch.

What had he done?

Avoidance [OTA]

Even after he awoke, Billy didn't want to leave the house. He was ashamed and scared, and used the excuse of resting for far longer than was true.

A few faces managed to hunt him down there, and it wasn't like Billy could turn them away, eventually relenting and breaking down a few of those barriers.

After that it was a little easier to venture out. It took a few smaller outing before he was able to get as far as the Hospital, but there at least he could focus on work.

(For Bucky/The Soldier)

Billy knew he probably wanted to stay hidden away as much as he did right now, but after what they'd been through together in the other world, he trusted the man to help him with this. Tommy and the others would refuse, but he was confident Bucky would understand. And he needed to apologize.

His magic was still weak, but it led him to the general location where he was meant to be. Billy couldn't quite meet his eye when he found him, swallowing thickly and looking uncomfortable.

"...Hey. Could we talk?"

Apology- Network- Text

I can't begin to make up for what I put you all through this last month. I had no right, and I'm so sorry you all got caught up in this mess.

I know that doesn't begin to make it right.

They did something to me. Like Calibrations...but worse. I don't know how. And I'm not trying to make excuses for what I did but- I'm scared they'll do it again. To any of us. I thought people should know.
kyley_b: (dude)

text;

[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-06-07 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
It's okay. It wasn't your fault, and it's okay.

Do you need anything?
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[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-06-07 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)
No, it wasn't. You said yourself they did something to you.

Uh, yeah, Billy? I might not be the one for that particular job.

Do you remember any of it?
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[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-06-07 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
You weren't yourself.

Yeah. Me too.

It's fine. For seriously. Kinda sad no more family dinners for us all.
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[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-06-07 11:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. Yes, it does.

That would be cool. September we could all like, do holidays and stuff. If you guys don't mind.

This is so weird, because I feel like you're my almost-brother now.
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[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-06-08 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
I hope so.

Yeah, pretty much. And I gotta warn you, dude, I'm pretty protective of my actual little brother, so... now that's you I guess. :)

That also means I'll totally do stuff for you while you recuperate.
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[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-06-08 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
I guess subconsciously you really wanted one?


I'm the best one, though. I have like, nineteen years of practice.
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[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-06-08 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
You guys are twins! It's different. Ike was way younger than me.
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[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-06-08 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
pain in the ass, aren't they? god i miss mine.
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[personal profile] kyley_b 2021-06-08 05:22 pm (UTC)(link)
yeah.

so. look. for seriously. you need anything, just msg me ok? i know everyone is gonna be like "none of it was real, billy" and be all pissy but i learned a long time ago that fake things ARE real. maybe not in the same way, but. yeah.