Jonathan 'Eyebags' Sims (
beholding_archivist) wrote in
revivalproject2020-06-03 04:35 am
Make your Statement, face your fear.
WHO: Jonathan Sims & YOU
WHERE: Jon's Calibration Room
WHAT: Explore the Archivist's mind
WHEN: During the Calibration Event [ June 3rd - July 10th ]
WARNINGS: EYES - Body horror, possible mentions of unsettling events including kidnapping, death and dreadful monsters
The Archivist's office is a mess. Most offices are. Especially offices located in basements. Offices that belong to equally chaotic archives. And the archives of the Magnus Institute are incredibly chaotic. Gertrude Robinson has seen to that. And yet the mess in this office isn't hers. It's the mess of the current Archivist, right now seated behind his cluttered desk, appearing even smaller than he actually is, the small lamp on the table serving as the only actual source of light in this room. In front of the Archivist sits a small pile of statement files on a dining plate, but his attention isn't on the files, it's on his visitor.
There are more of these files spread all over the room. Cardboard boxes full of them stacked high and pushed into whatever free corner has once existed in it. Further boxes are stacked less high or are plain lying around, some closed, some opened, some rummaged through. Other, smaller boxes that aren't filled with files join the previous ones. There are also a few metal shelves covering part of the walls. And file cabinets. There are more files in these as well as more boxes and books. Most of them scientific in nature, some deal with the arcane, myths and legends. Various types of tape recorders and boxes of tapes are also widely strewn about as well as loose pages of paper, the occasional tea mug and cobwebs. For some reason or another there are at least a dozen fire extinguishers to be spotted throughout the room, and it likely isn't due to the clearly used ashtray or the golden lighter with a cobweb design engraved onto it on the desk near the Archivist's dust-covered laptop, untouched cup of tea and the sole human rib. Aside from more stray sheets of paper and some writing equipment, a single book also resides on the desk, its title introducing it as A Guest for Mr. Spider.
Though there is more to be found in the various shelves as well. A knife as well as a cleaver, an unsuspecting whistle that seems to be surrounded by an odd fog and will vanish should one try to reach for it. Underneath one of the shelves, there even is a plain cardboard box filled with C-4 plastic explosives. Further up, a roughly football-sized dark sun dares the visitor to look at it to plunge them into utter and complete darkness. The frisbee some may recognize as a certain someone's shield seems a little out of place as it lays unassuming on one of the higher shelves, covering an odd little action figure from view.
But maybe one feels more compelled to look out of the window, suspiciously present in this basement office. Outside lies the vastness of space, set to incite the feeling of falling right into it unless one pulls away from the sight in time. Or the human-sized mannequin standing motionless in one of the corners, wearing an ancient gorilla skin along with its top hat and a wide, leery, painted-on grin. It has no eyes. The pulsing, black and red veins creeping along the walls of the office and present themselves in varying sizes and thicknesses may also draw the visitor's attention. Or the seemingly harmless and somewhat misplaced looking yellow door draws them in, just there on the wall behind that coffin lying on the floor as if it belongs there. Thick chains are wrapped around it with a padlock holding them close, key stuck inside and inviting the visitor to unlock it. Just ignore the large letters carved into its wood imploring you to 'DO NOT OPEN' the casket. It'll be fine.
Yet... How tempting all of these things may be, the visitor may be unable to entirely ignore the MASSIVE EYE taking up the entire ceiling of the room, glowing an eerie green and watching their every move. Or any of the other eyes scattered around the room. The walls, the cabinets, the shelves, the side of the Archivist's desk, the corners, the floor, the Archivist's forehead. All shapes and sizes and colors and all of them watching the visitor unblinking, unjudging. Just following their every move around the room - Just as the Archivist himself does.
Maybe you want to look around, and maybe you just want to take a seat in that single empty chair before the Archivist's desk. There is just enough room between it and the casket to not feel too cramped in. As for the trap door next to the Archivist's desk... Now that one won't open just yet.
WHERE: Jon's Calibration Room
WHAT: Explore the Archivist's mind
WHEN: During the Calibration Event [ June 3rd - July 10th ]
WARNINGS: EYES - Body horror, possible mentions of unsettling events including kidnapping, death and dreadful monsters
The Archivist's office is a mess. Most offices are. Especially offices located in basements. Offices that belong to equally chaotic archives. And the archives of the Magnus Institute are incredibly chaotic. Gertrude Robinson has seen to that. And yet the mess in this office isn't hers. It's the mess of the current Archivist, right now seated behind his cluttered desk, appearing even smaller than he actually is, the small lamp on the table serving as the only actual source of light in this room. In front of the Archivist sits a small pile of statement files on a dining plate, but his attention isn't on the files, it's on his visitor.
There are more of these files spread all over the room. Cardboard boxes full of them stacked high and pushed into whatever free corner has once existed in it. Further boxes are stacked less high or are plain lying around, some closed, some opened, some rummaged through. Other, smaller boxes that aren't filled with files join the previous ones. There are also a few metal shelves covering part of the walls. And file cabinets. There are more files in these as well as more boxes and books. Most of them scientific in nature, some deal with the arcane, myths and legends. Various types of tape recorders and boxes of tapes are also widely strewn about as well as loose pages of paper, the occasional tea mug and cobwebs. For some reason or another there are at least a dozen fire extinguishers to be spotted throughout the room, and it likely isn't due to the clearly used ashtray or the golden lighter with a cobweb design engraved onto it on the desk near the Archivist's dust-covered laptop, untouched cup of tea and the sole human rib. Aside from more stray sheets of paper and some writing equipment, a single book also resides on the desk, its title introducing it as A Guest for Mr. Spider.
Though there is more to be found in the various shelves as well. A knife as well as a cleaver, an unsuspecting whistle that seems to be surrounded by an odd fog and will vanish should one try to reach for it. Underneath one of the shelves, there even is a plain cardboard box filled with C-4 plastic explosives. Further up, a roughly football-sized dark sun dares the visitor to look at it to plunge them into utter and complete darkness. The frisbee some may recognize as a certain someone's shield seems a little out of place as it lays unassuming on one of the higher shelves, covering an odd little action figure from view.
But maybe one feels more compelled to look out of the window, suspiciously present in this basement office. Outside lies the vastness of space, set to incite the feeling of falling right into it unless one pulls away from the sight in time. Or the human-sized mannequin standing motionless in one of the corners, wearing an ancient gorilla skin along with its top hat and a wide, leery, painted-on grin. It has no eyes. The pulsing, black and red veins creeping along the walls of the office and present themselves in varying sizes and thicknesses may also draw the visitor's attention. Or the seemingly harmless and somewhat misplaced looking yellow door draws them in, just there on the wall behind that coffin lying on the floor as if it belongs there. Thick chains are wrapped around it with a padlock holding them close, key stuck inside and inviting the visitor to unlock it. Just ignore the large letters carved into its wood imploring you to 'DO NOT OPEN' the casket. It'll be fine.
Yet... How tempting all of these things may be, the visitor may be unable to entirely ignore the MASSIVE EYE taking up the entire ceiling of the room, glowing an eerie green and watching their every move. Or any of the other eyes scattered around the room. The walls, the cabinets, the shelves, the side of the Archivist's desk, the corners, the floor, the Archivist's forehead. All shapes and sizes and colors and all of them watching the visitor unblinking, unjudging. Just following their every move around the room - Just as the Archivist himself does.
Maybe you want to look around, and maybe you just want to take a seat in that single empty chair before the Archivist's desk. There is just enough room between it and the casket to not feel too cramped in. As for the trap door next to the Archivist's desk... Now that one won't open just yet.

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"Actually, no." He replies, giving half of a shrug. "But I recall you were rather fond of the concept of loud, not entirely sober space pirates." Which may be embarrassing for him again, but which of these memories aren't. At least these memories don't entail any of the horrors more commonly encountered in his more recent memories.
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Jon sputters briefly at Tony's words, unable to form a proper reply until the man is already directing him to where most of Jon's memory have been stored. He already knows what he is looking for - Even has held the object briefly while looking for the cat brush before. It's merely a matter of crouching down and picking the pair of goggles back up from where they have ended up, and Jon takes a moment to inspect the items, running a thumb over one of the lenses, cracked in a way not too unsimilar to how his phone's camera has been cracked and he just shakes his head faintly, though his face can't quite mask the amusement.
"If this is what I expect it to be, you will have ample time to make use of more than one sketchy restroom." And quite likely to get an idea just what sort of menace Jon used to be when he was younger.
After fumbling a moment longer with the accessory, Jon puts the goggles on his head, looking doubtful as he mutters "...I feel much too old for these now."
But whether or not Jon feels too old for them, the action manages to trigger the memory and just as with the memory involving the Admiral, this one begins with none of the distorting static and instead morphs the setting much more gradually into a larger room, clearly intended to be rented for private events or parties. Maybe not as fancy and flashy as the parties Tony has been holding in his mind, but affordable for the more regular people inhabiting cities such as London.
The open door at one end of the room leads to the main area of a very regular pub. Not a shabby one, but also not the most exclusive establishment. The room is filled with a decently-sized crowd, enjoying themselves with some alcohol while on the stage at the other end the group of musicians is getting ready for the next part of their show. The steampunk theme is obvious by the amount of top hats, goggles, belts and buckles and mismatched pieces of imaginary uniforms.
Jon's younger self paces between them, lacking an instrument of his own to adjust, but grasping a microphone that looks rather like it used to be part of an old radio. While missing his glasses, he is, in fact, wearing the same pair of goggles Jon has picked up in the office, lenses uncracked on that one. His hair is more wildly outgrown, but already showing the first streaks of grey and dark cracks are painted around his eyes with black makeup. The rest of his attire consists of a long, worn leather coat, a plain shirt that once used to be white, a waistcoat, dark pants and ankle-high boots paired with a set of fingerless leather gloves and a fake gun at his hip.
And above all that, this Jon appears very agitated in his pacing, making his current counterpart grimace slightly and cross his arms.
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You saw nothing.
“I was the only one against taking this job, but was severely outvoted. Several groups from several schools throwing money together to set up this event - The pay was good? But I didn’t like performing with tutors around that might recognize us. The performance at least went surprisingly well. Especially given I am already half drunk at this point.” Jon elaborates, pointing forward at the stage and then nodding for Tony to come along the edge of the room to get closer.
On the stage ahead, the young Jon has returned to the center of the stage, gesturing with the microphone in his hand while collecting various ready notions from the rest of the group before he nods himself and turns back to the room, meeting the lingering expectation with a glare that lasts for a few moments before the performance starts.
Quickly it’s clear that this isn’t a purely musical number, but more of a musical tale told and narrated. It’s also an oddly befitting that this take on popular fairytale figures is a gruesome and bloody one when paired with the knowledge of where Jon’s future is headed.
What’s also getting clear with the very first musical number is that the future Archivist’s strength lies with the wilder and more aggressive pieces and that this young man is well versed in threatening an entire room with merely his voice alone.
It doesn’t stop the older Jon from pointing out another little detail to Tony to call out his younger self even more. “I was pretty stupid back then for never wanting to bring my glasses to any of these, by the way. I could have avoided an embarrassing fall later that evening... But you may get to see that, actually.”
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It was easier for Tony to understand when the performance was less spoken word and more lyrical, but he wasn't sure how much that had to do with the band as it did with his rapt focus on young Jon's snarling and his unique position to slide behind the Jon standing off stage with him to watch over his shoulder, hands on his waist and ready to catch him if he started to shrink too much in humiliation. "These guys must have been a wreck when you left them, huh?" he observed, not sure it was just charisma they had been in the position of trying to replace. Murmured against Jon's neck with a laugh in voice, because this was sure to change on a dime when Jon started his stumbling or the group got too experimental again, Tony said, "Right now, I think I would thank you for spitting in my mouth. Is that weird? Who is this guy? Is this how you stopped Billy? Is that why he's hanging around the hospital now?"
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He watched the show for a few moments in silence, crossed arms wrapping around himself at some point before dropping down enough for him to place his hands over Tony’s. It’s still an odd time to remember. He easily felt more lost than he does these days at the Institute.
It’s the murmuring against his neck that pulls Jon back with a little shudder and he turns his head enough to glance back at the other man, blinking in befuddlement at what Tony just said before the flustered sputtering swallows Jon’s initial response before he can’t help but laugh briefly “Seriously? Christ! Do I now have to wonder if you want me to yell at you, or if you just want to watch me getting angry at others.” If it’s the latter... Well, then Tony might not need to wait too much longer. Not if Jon assumes the end of this memory correctly.
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The beat against Jon's chest was gone as Tony chuckled at Jon's sputtering, squeezing instead so Jon couldn't scramble away too quickly in embarrassment before Tony could press a kiss behind his ear for the reaction and ease his hold back down again to let him escape. Jon had done plenty of yelling at Tony and not a lot of getting angry at other people in front of him and Tony was here coaxing him to stay close with a tiny tug at his shirt, did Jon really have to ask? But Tony didn't have to see whatever Jon knew was coming to be wondering already, "Where is this aggression coming from?" The Admiral didn't seem to be experiencing any of it, but that moment could have been the exception to the rule, not the precursor to whatever was winding Jon so tight he was going gray before there were worms digging under his skin.
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“Would you believe me if I told you that a lot of it was fear...?” He asks without looking up. “My fears, insecurities, disappointments, Moments of sadness, grief and despair?”
Jon lets out a very short, dry laugh “Heh. It felt safer to hide all that behind anger and sharp skepticism. I was... Entirely on my own. Myself the only person I could trust and... Too afraid to show any sort of weakness, I suppose. Christ.... I maintained that behavior during all my years working in Research at the Institute and into my position as Head Archivist. It just... Felt safe.”
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He lets out a sigh while the show ahead approaches its finale "Maybe I'm even more afraid now. I now understand more, but at the same time understand even less as well. It's not only myself I can worry about any longer either. Sometimes it... It feels as if I'm responsible for the entire world and- That's a terrifying thought." Jon has to chuckle a little, giving the hand in his own a little squeeze before whispering "...I probably don't have to tell you that. I only wish my... Role... Wouldn't imply that ultimately... I have to help my patron try and make my world its own personal playground." Sure, he may have stopped rituals and saved his world, but all of that as an agent of just another evil god.
Two loud bangs from the stage declare the show finished as the performing Jon stands with his false gun raised high, finger still on the trigger and a dark glare cast over the audience. The pose then shifts flawlessly into a bow, complete with a flourish and he takes two steps back, making room for the rest of his group while making his way to the edge of the stage to just get down from it and find himself something to drink to make the evening at least somewhat worth his time.
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He still ponders the question posed a little longer "I- I don't think I can say that for sure yet. There is a lot I don't know. But I want there to be a different future. One that isn't... Dominated by fear and anguish. I just need to figure out where my place in such a future would be." And if there even exists a place for him in it at all.
Giving a little smile, Jon nods up at Tony "I'm sorry to hear you are having nightmares. But your world seems in good hands and I'm glad to hear that that you know what to do. I suppose it can't hurt to at least try following that example." Which is a preferable option to giving up right away and condemning any possibility for a better outcome.
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"Where do you want to be?" he asked. That seemed like an entirely different problem to Tony. He pointed in the wake of the memory of Jon, spilling his aggression onto a crowd, and said, "Wasn't here. Although, I gotta say, you are good at it. If you get this apocalypse thing over with, you might want to consider getting the band back together. Maybe skip the hats-- get a PR team together first, you know, put together a focus group..."
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And Jon simply shakes his head.
"No. All I wanted was to be left alone. Stay home, read a few books. Find a normal job..." He has never been a man of great aspirations or goals "Never thought I'd ever leave the country, even. And never wanted to either. Was a little surprised I enjoyed traveling a little while tracking down information about the Unknowing." As he says this and watches himself wander towards the door to step outside, the memory begins to waver.
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"Truth be told, Tony... I do consider myself lucky for having been taken away by the Agrii." And this is something Jon has admitted before, and will do again. Of course it's not easy on Temba, but being there... He has found a lot of time to think and contemplate. Time he hasn't really had before.
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Jon looks down at both of their hands before Tony's words pull his attention back up and responds with a softer smile of his own, not entirely fooled by the man's attitude any longer "I'm glad this allowed me to meet you, too." Despite all of those earlier difficulties. "See? You even became part of this place already." Jon adds with a nod upwards one of the shelves, pointing out the silly toy shield Tony just might recognize from a rather peculiar game of duck fishing.
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"I, ahm..." Jon at least begins to answer the question around the blush he can clearly feel forming on his face at the reaction. He makes no effort to stop Tony from taking the shield, coming along quite willingly. This is, after all, a memory they share. And by now Jon is well aware that it cuts off before things become awkward and painful. And despite the humiliation Tony puts him through, it's one of the good memories in here.
And while Tony winces at the other toy being exposed, Jon sputters a quick "Christ!" and makes an effort to hide his red face in Tony's chest, muttering something on the lines of being able to explain, but for the most part sounding more unintelligible than anything before.
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The noise he makes is one of weak indignation, but Jon refuses to step away.
"You know, I was a little mad about the blindfold at first." He says, voice soft. "I have gotten so used to... Seeing. Not being able to see - You know that terrifies me. But- I felt... Safe? There was nothing uncontrolled or truly dangerous abut it and- I think I enjoyed it? A little thrill without any risk..." Because actual dangers? He knows those. And he doesn't like those.
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"You stealing from the kids now? Is that part of your dream powers?" he asked after propping the shield up to bring the toy back down and waggle it accusingly. That was a preferable circumstance than anything Tony showing Jon in his own dreams making enough of an impression to cross over.
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He lets Tony put the frisbee back, noticing that he actually bothers enough to put it back in its proper place unlike the other items and then has to blink at the action figure, mouth opening in an attempted response, "You..... You remember that Billy gave me a couple of comic books...?"
Which is as far as he gets before the room morphs into the potentially familiar setting of the library, where Jon sits at his little table, a small stack of comic books open on one side while reading one of them with a very stern expression, notepad on his other side and pen in hand, doing his best to analyze what he is reading and looking at. The toy Tony has discovered stands on the table before him and Jon casts comparing glances between the action figure and the drawn images.
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