"I don't know what's easier. I never... I'm not someone who DOES easy, Kyle. I'm a fucking mess of bullshit. Hell, the way that I even realized something was wrong with that world was so fucking bullshit."

He wants to confess to Kyle everything he went through. He had SO MUCH experience there. And at last the throws up his arms in defeat.

"My best friend got sent home and it led to my brother having a mental break down, and I could really use my other best friend right now to talk to."