My behavior. That's what I'm apologizing for. Even if you don't feel like it's needed, I do. And so I'm giving it.

[He's going to hide how warm he feels over someone being proud of him, though. Like, he doesn't need people to know he's desperate for that sort of approval because he's spent most of his life pretending he didn't.]

Years of friendship with David Alleyne stacked up with time here and my recent associations and need to support someone I care about apparently has a maturing affect.